It sounds like our spring-like weather will be interrupted by the 5 - 10 cm of snow that is forecast for tomorrow, but by Friday it's supposed to be 8 degrees, so that snow won't last long. I'm sure I'm not the only one looking forward to green grass and budding flowers and leaves, but it's a bit too early for spring...we need a few more weeks of snow so that it's not another dry summer!   

I got the recipe from allrecipes.com.  After reading a bunch of the comments with the recipe, I altered it to increase the peanut butter to 1 cup instead of 1/2 and used 4 bananas instead of 2.  The main comment I based my changes on suggested baking them for 25 minutes at the same temperature as with the loaf directions, but with my oven, I had it around 25 degrees lower and they were ready in about 18 minutes.  Oh I also added some chocolate chips instead of walnuts.  I found the flavors on the mild side, and not overly sweet, but they are tasty!  I used organic peanut butter, so had I used regular peanut butter the taste would probably be a bit stronger and maybe a little sweeter.  All in all I'm happy with them and will probably make them again!

At least I'm looking forward to the coming weekend, hubby comes home, photowalk on Saturday, and I think the weather is supposed to be pretty decent.  What's a photowalk?  Check out the info on my hubby's website, and feel free to join us!  A few people have asked me what kind of camera I use, it's a Canon g10.  As I'm getting more comfortable taking pictures off of the automatic setting, I find myself thinking about borrowing Jared's camera to try out a DSLR, but I have yet to do it.  I  haven't used my own camera for a little while, so I have to re-learn what it was I thought I understood from our last photo forays first :)

I think one of my tasks tomorrow will be to do some baking.  I used to bake a lot, but haven't done much for quite a while.  I mistakenly thought we were low on bananas for the bunnies so I bought more yesterday, and now there are a few too many!  I came across a recipe for peanut butter banana muffins last week so I might give that a try, if I have everything I need for it.  If I don't, I probably won't feel like running to the grocery store for the third day in a row!  Unless of course, I use it as an opportunity to stop at Timmy's for an iced capp on the way home! 

The sun is shining and the skies are blue...

Why I'll just put on my sunglasses...

Ooops! Those aren't my sunglasses, they're my 3D glasses from seeing Avatar.  Scratch that.  Get in the car and go for a drive...

Oh look, slurpee machines!  That's handy!

Look how that snow is melting!  Subaru!

Look at the pretty colors in that environmentally unfriendly puddle...

Ick.

In other news, I came across a couple of fortunes I saved because they worked well with the 'in bed' rule...

and

I don't remember who the fortunes are referring to, but it was either me, Jared, Graham or Jae.  Or perhaps all of us?  Excellent.

Ok, that second note doesn't quite flow properly, but they saved the best for last:

Gotta love it!

Ok wait a second...I was going to put a picture of marshmallows up there, so I did an image search on google...and look what one of the results was...not exactly what I had in mind!! LOL  File that one under crazy crafters!!

The past week was so full of negative energy and I felt worn down by it quite quickly.  How easy it is for small gains to seem like they've flown out the window and that you've taken 5 steps back.  Hopefully the coming week bring better things.  Spending time with my adorable nieces Sunday afternoon will hopefully get the ball rolling.

As I'm unwinding and trying to let go of the unhappiness I dragged around with me this week, I'm listening to the beautiful, peaceful music of my cousin, Michael Logozar, and I feel like my spirit has lightened.  Thank you Michael.

Take a listen to his CD, Coming Into View, over at his website.

(you can also buy it there or at itunes)  :)

Because I didn’t want to ‘bore’ people, I have talked and continue to talk about other things.  Does that mean I don’t still struggle with depression?  No.  A blog is a small distraction.  Because I have chosen to speak more about things that have made me happy or that I have enjoyed instead of focusing on the sadness, which I do enough outside of my blog, people assume I am just fine and dandy.  How can I be so ‘ill’ yet go on a trip somewhere, and good gracious if I post pictures along the way and let people know I’m feeling good for a change.  Because I am depressed, that is apparently not allowed.  I cannot go visit family who live in other parts of the country and enjoy my time with them.  I cannot be any degree of happy at Christmas, and there is no way I may go on a vacation at any time of the year, because I am not allowed a change of scenery even though I may spend days on end in my house with the blinds drawn, speaking to no one but my husband when he calls from working up north, and leaving only when absolutely necessary.  If I am having a good day, I better not go outside and engage in a hobby for a little while, taking pictures and posting them, because that is not allowed either.  For those of you who have nothing better to do with your time than take notes about anything I might say or change on my blog or on Facebook and gossip about me, would you rather I discuss in detail the weekly sessions with my psychologist, which have been ongoing for months, or the fact that I have been referred to a psychiatrist?  Do you need to know what medications I’m on, and at what dose?  Should I keep track of the nights I cannot sleep and post them weekly for you to review, or provide you with a list of friends I have not seen or spoken to in a year and have likely lost because of how much I have withdrawn?  Heaven forbid I take advantage of any gains I've made with treatment and be daft enough to make postings when I'm having a better day.  I guess I didn’t get the handbook that explains what you can and cannot do when you are depressed. 

I realize participating in any social networking site or blog is inviting people into my life and that I am opening myself to their opinions, assumptions, and judgments of anything I do, say, post, add or delete; I’m not stupid enough to think I’m not.  But to those of you apparently questioning the authenticity of my illness and with nothing better to do with your time than talk about me behind my back, GET A LIFE.